Quick turnaround from a month ago. This end of school/ summer thing has been going along just fine without a significant other and I find myself not thinking about it unless I force myself to. Regardless of whether she meant anything special to me, (ok, she definitely did once upon a time, that is undeniable) it doesn't seem to matter much now, and I've missed the boat anyway. Besides, if there's one thing I can't stand about her (though it's not really her) it's that goddamn E-Hill cliqueyness, and that has become even more pronounced with the advent of summer. Arrrgh; they are all such fantastic people individually or in small groups, why does it have to turn into a giggly, listen to horrible pop music dance-fest any time they all come together?
More importantly, I feel so ready to move on with life that this feeling seems to be sweeping everything else past. In some respects (i.e. nagging parents) this is more than okay with me, but in others (friends) it freaks me out ever so slightly. But just as seeing other people stress about the IB tests reminded me to chill out, listening to others worry about going off to school and missing their friends reminds me that it doesn't have to be such a huge deal. I don't discount the importance of my current friends, (Pete's blog and recent grad parties reminded me just how special they are) but the fact is that I will find ways to keep in touch with those people I truly care about, and the rest, though they all have made important impressions on my life, will drift quietly by into the realm of memory. Perhaps that should be a sad or sobering thought, but it all seems quite natural. Still, the sense that this represents something of an end as well as a beginning is already making this summer one of the more fantastic on record, and I look for that to continue (Ropez anyone?). How's that for a silver lining on an already brilliant cloud?
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It's crazy how quickly things seem to be shifting now that school's out. Obviously, this coming from the girl who spent the entire day in the company of her pets and watched two made-for-tv movies in a row doesn't seem to fit, but whatever. What I should have said was, 'it's crazy how quickly things seem to be shifting for people who have lives.'
ReplyDeleteAnd as far as drifting quietly by into the realm of memory? I'm going to have to quote my blog on this one and say "If you don't keep in touch with me, I will cyberstalk the hell out of you."
haha, awesome. go for it, but I will definitely keep in touch. you're too memorable to simply be a memory. =)
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